“I
can't do it” is definitely something I say more than I should. I
second guess myself a lot too, especially when I dance. It's not that
I think i'm not good it's just I always get worried and think i'm
doing something wrong.
I
was scared to death the day of competition I walked into the dressing
area and you could smell the fear and anxiety, like hard work and
sweat. I kept choking up and forgetting the choreography backstage,
but my friends voice just kept repeating in my head from something
she said earlier, “ Don't worry Ang, you know the choreography...
you're just psyching yourself out like the rest of us. We are all
nervous, but don't worry. Whatever happens we do it together.” So
as I kept hearing her voice I realized that my dance teacher was
giving us a pep talk while the number before us was ending. Just as
my dance teacher stopped talking, they finished. All of us got silent
as the audience claps, in our heads we all know what we need to do,
let's just hope we can do it.
They
introduced our act and everything was going smoothly until we all
heard a little stutter in the music... my heart dropped all of us
flinched a little bit but kept dancing until my worst nightmare
happened. The music stopped. We stopped with it and for what felt
like hours but was only really a few seconds I swear I heard the
crickets chirping as though without the music no one could make a
sound. Me and my friend looked at each other, good thing we were in
the back so the judges couldn't see the look of fear on my face. I
felt bad as I looked back towards the front at my other friend and I
felt bad because I saw the sadness and fear in her eyes as she
forcefully kept a smile on her face like the rest of us. Gladly the
announcer then stated that “Act 83 must report backstage as we try
a grab you a new copy of your music.” we breathed a sigh of relief
and exited the stage. When he called us back on we did great! During
awards my heart stopped when he said that we won 3rd
place! After that moment I know that even if something comes in your
way that makes you fall just get back up and try, try again.
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